But, why I'm here...my little girl is not so little any more. She's 4!!! I almost can't believe it - it seems like it was just a few months ago that I was holding her teeny tiny little body in my arms, trying not to break her little legs as I put them into footed sleepers that were meant to fit dolls. That less-than-5-pound little miracle is now a beautiful, smart, 'big' girl of 4. Someone pinch me...
I've spent the last few days hugging my kids a little tighter, holding them a little longer, and dropping whatever I'm doing just to love them a little better. I encourage you to do the same - it shouldn't take tragedy in our lives to make us realize that these are the things that matter.
Standing in the firm grip of my God-
cv
2 comments:
Hi Honey,
Are you surprised? This is my first official comment left on ANY blog although, as you know, I do follow a few faithfully. I wanted to let you know you've been on my heart so much this week. We've talked about the way things have come together without knowing why and I remembered you writing in one of your first posts:
"I have been realizing lately that I could use a little more connection with people - I'm not sure what that looks like for me, but I know that God wants me to be in relationship, and in community, sharing my life with others, and being a part of their lives. This is a place that I'm not raring to jump into at this stage in my life, but I'm feeling the prodding, so I'm trying."
Boy, can I see His hand in placing you where you are in the midst of this tragedy. Praying for you that you can be there for them and be able to process your own emotions at the same time. Wish I was there with you right now.
4 years old! It seems to me too like it was just yesterday we were amazed at that tiny little baby, so precious. Remember how we were so worried about her we took shifts "watching" her while she slept? I couldn't believe how much she has "matured" when I was there last month. She is a beautiful, smart, loving, happy little girl now. No more baby. I see so much of you in her. You guys are doing such a great job with both Nicole and Kyle.
I know the feeling you spoke of, my heart being so full and heavy at the same time. To be so blessed with my children and grandchildren and yet be so far away is so very hard at times. Please give the kids extra hugs from Grandma too. Sending some your way also.
Well, now that I'm a pro at commenting, I may go back and leave some at your earlier postings. May even branch out and comment on other people's blogs.
Just realized there is no spell check on this.....I'm in trouble!
Love you, Mom
I'm sorry to be rude and read your personal blog but I googled my name and saw your site. My name is Nicole Varenkamp and if I'm reading this correctly so is your daughters. Varenkamp isn't too common of a last name so I thought it was pretty interesting that we share the same name. I also noticed this post was on may 24 and you were saying she was 4. my birthday is on may 23 and i turned 23. Anyway, sorry to bother you. feel free to email me if you are curious as I was. nvarenkamp@yahoo.com
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